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~Saturday, April 29, 2006 ~

gosh...

my hp bill hit the highest low in duno how many yrs?! no overuse outgoing call, no exceed sms.. im so proud of myself.... wonder next month will remain like tt or not? =(

ended the day badly today... tot i can sleep abit more tonite... guess i cannot... will wake up as usual on sats to go office get something b4 i go teach.. grrr.. been very stress lately... this is not helping... i need a break... someone help me pls.... it's been tiring to handle all these... trying to keep up w my work...no time to rest... im actually lagging behind in my practising of drums n percussion... drums: no way im gonna hang ard my office AFTER office hrs... i just feel stress only. hang out w my boss? almost impossible...coz he will just ask me qns out of the blue about work in bet. it's stressful... really.. esp he works at nite while i works in the day. after office hrs i wana switch off... also cannot... sad one u know... unless it's makan session after a gig.. usually he dun ask.. but still it happens.. and despite the stress i need to show my family esp my mum how happy i am working this line. it's fun n interesting... but stress n being alert at all times come along too. i need a break b4 i break down.have not been very efficient with work lately. and feeling stoned n tense all the time.. even after work.. SOS i need help. who can help me?

coming back to percussion, if i dun go for perc pracs n band pracs, i think i would have lose it all. 4 mallets also cannot play now. WTH. i would need to tok to my dear boss about this. about changing to part time. SOON.

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~Thursday, April 27, 2006 ~

oh well... it's been a 充实的 week thus far

hmm.... without boss ard, work seems tougher and much more stressful... coz certain things i duno how to handle.. and my stress level has been building up... so i sound so tense and worked up easily these days.... i also dont want to but it's just natural reaction... =\

ok back track abit... last wk busy w weilian concert la... it was fun working at backstage... esp since there isnt much to do as my company wasnt dealing direct w mediacorp.. hee just hanging ard w bmc guys, making myself busy, trying to be useful, observing how things r done/run... been an experience.... will get it much more in may...will deal direct w them.. haha

sunday wanted to wake up n go cc earlier to prac... but still cannot.. damn shagged out from past 2 days... anyway ended up makan lunch w mrs chua behind cc!! keke.. during break, sang bday song w cake for meiling.. hee saved the cake to eat after prac... quite fun~~ then me meiling justina joanne desmond went to holland V NYDC makan dinner... got vouchers!! but cannot use all at same time! oh well... after which joanne n des went home.. and after wasting alot of time n brain cells, we ended up in holland v TCC for a drink... home at 12plus am... somehow im darn tired but i just felt energetic at nite?!

next day mon... sibei stoned out sia... got tt 生不如死 feeling... damn stoned.. no mood to work at all... just want to rest n recuperate... and the difficult event to handle coming up is just not making it any better... after work went to get the CD i was supposed to collect at HMV... bought for work purposes.... then i bought 2 cds for myself! lol and comtemplated if i should take a walk down to isetan to check the wallet out... coz joanne n justina bought new wallets recently.. same brand/design but 2 diff colour... $10 only!!! the one they have is abit to "fat" for me.. justina said got longer one.. in the end just walk over la... duno when i got time to go n see... check the wallet.. seems not bad.. buy la! and was persuaded to buy the little carrier bag of same design.. matches so well.. hee also $10 la.. and so i bought quite some stuff... saw the skirt hanging there... quite nice.. went to try... chio! and cannot resist temptation n buy... -_-''' wat's up w me... sian (inner voice: hey wat about tt chio black skirt u like at m)phosis?! why didnt u buy tt?!) and so i bought meiling's present too.. keke... and there goes my $$ much poorer now! it's very devastating to see ur bank account dropped so much $$$$ :'( oh well, went back home happy n broken hearted.. haha bought tix for West side story on wed nite!!!!! YESH!! finally im going for it! heehee $40 tix sold out.. bought $50 one...

tues! well.. another scary day at work... lunch time walked to PS to pass something to a musician.. and shun bian makan lunch n rushed to buy bday card... walked back in the drizzle... very stressful today coz i need to leave at 6pm no matter what coz i got private tuition so was rather stressed out to get things done for the upcoming events... and so got last min event popping up... 6pm rushed off to newton area.. happened to take same bus as ian! keke... he's sick! so cham.. and got clarinet dip exam next day!!! oh well... after tuition we went separate ways...keke went down to meiling workplace to surprise her! haha gave her a call b4 tt to make sure she is still there! haha boon joon, guobin n vincent were there~~ keke... after she's done w work went to makan at magic wok! heehee... liew! siao arh u(meiling)! order so much food... was like -_-'''' oh well, we pulled it off and finished everything?! i was darn full and feeling rather guilty.. put back on all the weight i've tried so hard to lose!!!!! argh haha.. oh well give face la..l ppl bday ma.. haha and so took train til AMK n bus home... well... at AMK i was still feeling darn full and refuse to risk taking bus straight away.... i may just puke the food out.. haha.. walked 1 bus stop distance n took bus from there... hee was still rather stoned out so im sorry if i wasnt really contributing to talking except the part about going for the holiday in may... heehee paiseh arh!

wed... oh well was feeling excited the night b4 about watching the show! heehee this morning woke up n was thinkin wat to wear again.. change my mind again and out i go for work... let my mum choose bet the 2 wallet i bought.. heehee she took the brown one i took the white one... hee brought to work so can change wallet when free... the moment stepped into office... STRESS.... sian... and non stop feeling of stress n tons of work to do even after working hours... last min got more events... waliew.. stress... oh well... left office ard 6.30pm... walked abit inside raffles city.. oh saw some suitable bags can put A4 size files/papers in them at rather cheap price... will check them out 2mr if im free... met up w nick close to 7pm and we duno where to makan dinner.. and off we go inside cafe cartel..... been a long time since i stepped into cartel... and the last time i went in was..... w nick also?! hahaha the service change liao leh!!! i think now much better la... prob they super promoting GEMs and trying to improve their customer service after negative feedbacks from customers?? hee quite efficient n fast.. left cartel ard 7.40/5pm... walkd thru citylink n to box office to collect tix.... joanne didnt recognise me at first!!! haha i still rem how she look like.. amazing... chatted for a while while collecting n left! =) oh yes will sms her in advance if i go down to harrys... went right into the hall after collection... hee got some time.. very high!!! bobian... the top level on the theatre... but great view of the orchestra pit!! can see suhua at the 1st glance.. hahaha great music! of coz some mistakes here n there la.. but overall it's nice! after interval abit not concentrating le... tired i guess.. and distracted by sms.. the drummer is really pro! hee sometimes abit lost w what they were saying/singing... and i referred to the chinese subtitles at the side..hahaha the female lead is veeeery good! nice voice n the high notes were like... fwah! leonard berstein... all time fav composer!! after show, still no reply from meiling.. asked her to meet up after im done w the show.. -_- and walked to cityhall to take bus home from there... smsed suhua on the way...and even at home...oh well, i guess we r frds now! hee

Down here, i must really thank Nick for accompanying me to watch this marvellous musical~~ even though he was rather clueless wat was the story about.. hehee im certainly glad u enjoyed the music! i was also super distracted w the wonderful music and those marvelous superb musicians that some parts of the show i missed looking at the stage.. hee oh gosh... pls let me play west side story symphonic dances soon... OH! Im sorry u didnt get to eat haagan daz ice cream in the end!!!!! heehee SORRY!!!! thanks for ur company! =D

p/s: i think i should get tt 3 CD album of West Side Story, conducted by leonard berstein himself... when he was old old and it was his 1st time conducting the music after the music has been played n famous for 30 over yrs! caught the DVD making of the album... simply breathe taking! well.. if i rem n got $$ to buy la.. $100 over .. and not sure if they r still publishing tt album... =(
got chest pain on my way home... is it my posture?? i also dunno why... doesnt sound too good... hope no more pain when i wake up... so no crunches tonite.. =(

good nite!

Jenn @ 4/27/2006 12:04:00 AM | 0 Comments | Post a Comment

~Monday, April 24, 2006 ~

nice photo?

ok.. just saw this pic on my frd's blog... oh well... those were the happy n fun days back in holland..

















Laterz!

Jenn @ 4/24/2006 02:18:00 AM | 0 Comments | Post a Comment

~Sunday, April 23, 2006 ~

my 1st big show - singer concert. (well, the other time i was at the other gig for an italian singer)

  • hmm.. juswt to jot down some quick tots b4 i sleep.. might as well since im online... haha
  • weilian is just so lihai.. mejmorise everything and stuff... taici too... *applause*
  • jason tan(陈国强) is just soooooooooo nice.. bringing weilian and accompany him almost all the time i see la...
  • the musicians r all killers la! the most hilarious part was towards the end... coz last min changes... then the mediacorp guy giving the que gave instructions in chinese when the band leqader is malay and cannot understand... worse of all, the song title is called UNDERSTAND...了解... faintz.. got some miscom just like 20 secs b4 the musicians have to go on stage again... walao... funny sia...
  • no, i didnt get to speak to cai chun jia...she's tall and have distinct features on her face... perhaps her fair complexion also contributes to tt... she seems abit dao but maybe she's just lying low la.. duno...
  • had fun w the bmc guys.. keke...
  • got to know 2 new backstage ppl today.. TWINS! haha cool.. ah hock(mark) & ah zai(marcus) i hope i'll rem their face/s! heehee very nice guys... ah hock shared his kitkat "kop-ed" from the lovely goodies courtesy from Blue Angels.. WL fanclub..
  • the blue angels r really sweet... they made goodies FOC for the audience(how many i duno.. mayb only most ex seats.. keke) inside got lightstick too... really 用心
  • quan yifeng hair is super damn chio! most of the time i see her backview only..side of stage ma... she dun hang ard backstage too..
  • ppl have no idea wat am i doing there.. lol
  • the 6 dancers r so pro n chio!! and one of them is mei's niece... cool... and one of them i believe is my pri/sec sch/uni class-cum-dance/schoolmate... i looked abit too hard at her when i found her familiar and she looked back.. i have no idea if she recogniss me at all... i do recognise her... she still looks pretty much the same... and more chio! keke but i wasnt 100% sure.. tot i would approach her today if got chance... but i didnt get to... sigh... would wana chat up n also see if she has met up w any pri sch pepz recently... well, seeing her dancing so well with poise and stage presentation, really happy for her. good foundation really set it all.. since pri 1, 7 yrs old.. haha... but i just feel very sad tt i stopped dancing tt time back in pri sch.... i really regret totally.... if not, i would have been dancing now and not playing music! hee... seriously...just cant help to feel 无奈 at times... how fate likes to play (serious) jokes on us... anyway back to the topic, perhaps i'll send her a msg on friendster( i think she's in my list) and get back in touch.. after all, we were in same schools for 10 over yrs(including NUS! :P)

okay, sleep is the priority now! will add some photos here! keke laterz!


Jenn @ 4/23/2006 02:50:00 AM | 0 Comments | Post a Comment

~Tuesday, April 18, 2006 ~

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.
What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Jenn @ 4/18/2006 01:44:00 AM | 0 Comments | Post a Comment

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Guiness?! liew.. i hate it...

You Are Guinness

You know beer well, and you'll only drink the best beers in the world.
Watered down beers disgust you, as do the people who drink them.
When you drink, you tend to become a bit of a know it all - especially about subjects you don't know well.
But your friends tolerate your drunken ways, because you introduce them to the best beers around.
What's Your Beer Personality?

Jenn @ 4/18/2006 01:31:00 AM | 0 Comments | Post a Comment

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ok.... am i like tt? hmm

Your Love Element Is Fire

In love, you are a true listener and totally present.
For you, love is all about feeling more alive than you've ever felt.

You attract others with your joy and passion.
Your flirting style is defined by your strong ability to communicate.

Fun and play are the cornerstones of your love life.
And while your flame may burn too brightly, it's part of your appeal.

You connect best with: Wood

Avoid: Water

You and another Fire element: will likely burn out quickly
What Element Is Your Love?

Jenn @ 4/18/2006 01:28:00 AM | 0 Comments | Post a Comment

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Espresso! woohoo! but i never drink espresso alone b4 leh..

You Are an Espresso

At your best, you are: straight shooting, ambitious, and energetic

At your worst, you are: anxious and high strung

You drink coffee when: anytime you're not sleeping

Your caffeine addiction level: high
What Kind of Coffee Are You?

Jenn @ 4/18/2006 01:22:00 AM | 0 Comments | Post a Comment

~Friday, April 14, 2006 ~

why do some guys like try hard to get?

oh well, just a passing tot... jio a guy to go out... but i didnt mean anything ma... just seems so idiotic... ok just reflects badly on myself.... haha stupid.. right, last time we almost got together but it doesnt mean im trying to do something right.... just wana remain as frds leh... oh well... very sianz.. but anyway there's the other guy i think he still likes me... HELP!! argh... not interested AT ALL... why doesnt ppl help me? i think they enjoy seeing interesting things happening coz work just seems so boring... oh well... i wun do anything as long as he dun try anything funny.... -_-'''

took some great pics tonight.. keke.. ok la.. boliao go n take one... keke will post up here when im free... soon...

Jenn @ 4/14/2006 01:54:00 AM | 0 Comments | Post a Comment

~Wednesday, April 12, 2006 ~

RUFF!!!

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You're a Cocker Spaniel!

Jennifer, you're a Cocker Spaniel!

No bones about it, you're a perky, loving Cocker Spaniel. (Think Lady from Lady and the Tramp.) Playful and energetic, you're a real people person — er, dog. People can't help but fall hook, line, and sinker for your friendly, well-rounded personality and natural charm. It's a subtle thing, though — being outgoing and flirtatious, not showy, is the name of your game. Friends, co-workers, and potential dates can't help liking you. How could they not? Your winning-yet-humble ways make you popular, admired, and a joy to be around. Woof!

What Breed of Dog Are You?

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Jenn @ 4/12/2006 11:42:00 PM | 0 Comments | Post a Comment

~Tuesday, April 11, 2006 ~

one of the rare moments in life these days..

Aint this cute??


















oh well.. not something tt special.. but it's been rather fun these 2 days... hanging out w my fav buddies/frds... justina joanne meiling desmond... thanks guys! =D

we went to watch movie tonight... ice age 2... think i didnt see part 1... this is wayyyyy farnie!!! heehee for so long in my life.. i laff so loudly and hard... so damn lame lo... i seldom laff til so loudly in cinema one.. like paiseh sia.. but i dun care... not alot of ppl in lido theatre 2 either... keke... i simply luv the music!!! got all kinds.. got musical style, opera, classical, dramatic cartoon... i simply luv the pieces! the bassoon solo in one part of the show is way touching! =)
check it out! hee

peace n out for now,

jennifer

p/s: i almost peng san on sunday nite.... stomach gone haywired today... but i survived!! well... hope to get sick on wed so i can rest at home.. hehee 2mr cannot arh... got event to do... can see some local stars... keke

Jenn @ 4/11/2006 12:33:00 AM | 0 Comments | Post a Comment

~Tuesday, April 04, 2006 ~

i need some motivation

oh well, ever since my bro wedding, im no longer motivated to keep to my routine of crunches and stretches and been eating more n more!!?? argh... pls help me think of something to motivate me to go slimmer... those with successful ideas shall be rewarded! kekeke my 2nd bro's wedding is too far away(nov or later) to be a motivation... =\ help help!

i long for someone to lean on...but future is so uncertain... im not even sure if i'll be leaving singapore at all... and if i do, tt will be at least a couple of yrs... i guess no one wants to be in a long distance r/s... i dun mind if that will be the case but no one will wait for the other. UNLESS the person also goes over as well..how likely would that be? im just feeling abit depressing and reluctant to leave SG.. but for the future of me and perhaps performing arts scene here, it's best tt i leave... and be back later on to help shaping the scene here or boost std of playing here... gosh i dun even know i will be accepted. blardy hell. BISH! wake up!! and pls start thinkin how to type nicely in my email over to them... -_-'''

Jenn @ 4/04/2006 11:51:00 PM | 0 Comments | Post a Comment

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Ok this is it.

Nice tulips...


幸福的一对


小燕子 亲爱的大哥

大嫂! 美丽的 Tuas Link?!

oh man.. feels like holiday!


大嫂 again! chio cousin chris


oH I simply luv this red evening gown!

Jenn @ 4/04/2006 11:14:00 PM | 0 Comments | Post a Comment

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ok.. my bro's wedding...

hmmm well not quite ..... as yet.

im lazy to update this place lar... any kind soulmate-to-be can help? i'll just go on n on and then u can just get the info and post here.. heehe... finally i went home early for the 1st time after so long.. and update the musart webby abit... and then ... i didnt send the email to NYU!! argh... was busy w desperate housewives... and then grey's anatomy.. watched it thru the entire episode for the 1st time... oh well... must email over to NYU real soon to check out some info... sianz... so far, it's way cool to confirm that i do not need to take SAT test or any other test like GRE for the study/ies i might be undrtaking... way cool... keke happy sia... hopefully i can skip most of the general modules..

ok.. tt's all for now...
p/s: yes! joey is back from her long leave!!!! hooray!! hopefully things will get better from now on.. but... i've yet to tell my boss my short term plans as yet... havent exactly fix one... hmm.... help! i duno how to come up w a good plan... sigh...

Jenn @ 4/04/2006 12:40:00 AM | 0 Comments | Post a Comment

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  • bass drum double pedal
  • cymbals( crash, hihat, ride) plus bag
  • practice pad stand (for my current one)
  • do my audition tape!!!
  • study in US!
  • O2 xda mini
  • konica minolta DiMAGE X60!!
  • dun mind this metronome!
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