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My Inner World

~Wednesday, June 27, 2007 ~

off to italy! Besana!

hee ok im leaving for airport from home in less than an hrs time... i see u guys soon ok... going to bathe n pack remaining stuff into my luggage.. heavy sia... hehe

cant wait to drink italian home made coffee! *slurp*

laterz!

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Jenn @ 6/27/2007 03:50:00 PM | 0 Comments | Post a Comment

~Wednesday, June 20, 2007 ~

RIP my dearest abang, zali...

i know i never update about zali's condition... was too lazy to blog about anything...

after tt operation on prev entry, he slowly recovered n got better..., but no visitors allowed for ard a week... the last time i went down to SGH he was already much better and the wife was feeling better emotionally... we couldnt communicate much coz she dun speak much eng and i cant understand malay... we try lo... i knew tt he was getting better n i better get my stuff done b4 the italy trip n us trip.. i wanted to visit him last wed coz i was in the area... why didnt i insist myself to go?! i was with leslie ( we havent seen each other for months) n i tot it would be weird if i pull him along to go hospital visit... so i dropped the idea...

anyway, zali was getting better til today(19 june, tues) 5am, his heart beat stopped... they resucitated him n put him on a life support system... this morning, i was barely trying to wake up at 9plus am when uda called me to tell me about the bad news... i knew i cant go down immediately coz i need to go out w mum otherwise it's rather hard for us to meet up b4 i fly to italy next wk.. i did some shopping n was thinkin about zali... i tot he will be able to get thru this...not knowing how bad the situation was... reached SGH 5plus... his ICU equipment looks real bad... the heart was beating... but blood pressure low.. everything lo... oxygen machine was right there... the other bmc guy was there too(forgot his name) he told me he came yesterday(mon) n zali was fine n in good spirit... all tt's left was the oxygen machine by his bed in a normal ward.. but...
i skipped alumni band prac tonite n stayed there til 10pm... left w uda n the bmc guy... alot of ppl came... coz the bad news reached them.. the doc said he wun be able to make it past today... it was really heart wrecking to see all his relatives chanting for him n saying prayers(muslim).. the wife all stoned out with her 2 kids(plus one in the stomach)... his younger sis appeared(i didnt know she existed.. never really saw her ard..ok maybe i didnt notice) his elder sis totally collapsed this evening...i think she just rushed down, perhaps from airport..the elder sis was in thailand w her family(i think) n zali's mum when they got the news n flew back immediately..

and just as i was telling nick about zali's (coz he was asking ard who's free to go JB, i mentioned even if im free, i would be down at SGH) worsen condition, uda called me ard 1.45am... he's gone.

instinctively i knew it would be bad news to receive call from Uda at this time... we all expected bad news but i was still full of hope tt he will make it thru today... alas, he didnt.. after stoning for a while, i called tama ard 10mins later... 1st thing he said after picking up, 'you got bad news for me?' SIGH... ya i tot he would want to know esp since i know he'll be awake..

i tot i'll be fine coz the news was expected... uda was saying we shd have stayed on... i even joked during dinner to him tt i will regret the rest of my life for not visiting zali last wk..

i tot i will not regret something like tt ever again.. coz when wanling passed away, i didnt even visit her in hospital once..knowing she was in NUH but i duno which ward..to think i even went down NUH foodcourt for dinner during exam period.. one thing i did right at tt time was i smsed her once when i heard she got hospitalised if she was all right... she replied saying she's ok... everything came to light only after she lost the battle to the cancer.. she was hiding the truth from everyone... and i totally regretted not taking any pic with her (maybe i did, defintely not my camera..dun own one then) since then i told myself i must treasure my frds... tt's why sometimes im so nice la.. hee do stupid things n buy snacks for u guys.. heh

i havent seen zali for quite some time prior to this accident... i heard news about him here n there from ppl who keep in closer contact to him.. i sms him b4, tt we must meet up once in a while after i stopped full time w tama, he stopped full time w bmc... but we did not...occassionally we exchanged sms lo.. i didnt want to sms him too often.. i dun wan the wife to think i was trying to be funny...(duno her then) he loves his sons very much... he's frdly n helpful to everyone...at work especially... tt explains why the crowd appear inside/outside ICU ward 52B... we went out once... with his other frds he was really nice n decent.. he taught me things at work n in life... he disturbs me once in a while, asking 'how's u n bernie' coz the 1st time me n bernie went out after work near forum, we bumped into him n i was delighted tt i screamed 'ABANG!' he was shocked at my reaction.. hahaha bernie was totally confused at tt instant...(oh ya, we all knew one another) little things u rem about someone... all these flashbacks actually came back to me tt time when he was in critical condition 2-3 wks back.. now im not thinkin.. im too tired to think...

i wonder how many more ppl will be recalling their interaction/time with zali when dawn breaks...at least by now at 2.49am, alot of his frds would have gotten the news.. i called bernie but no one pick up.. he shd be sleeping.. the calling will be done by uda...

zali, u'll be dearly missed...by ur family, ur dear frds, ur dear colleagues, ur dearest adik perempuan - me.

25nov2005 - ya busy playing games or wat.. dun wana pose for cam.. ah heng here!

12Dec2005 - at clarins perfume launch event at chjimes.. the day he became my abang... our joke:where's my cheesecake?!

31Dec2005 - NYE countdown at Fullerton Hotel..purposely pose such a cham face..(ya i was fatter, *ah hem* still fat)

signing off for now at 3.13am...lurve ya abang! it would be freaky if i dream of u but i want to... i want to say goodbye n enjoy heaven

Jenn @ 6/20/2007 02:13:00 AM | 0 Comments | Post a Comment

~Friday, June 01, 2007 ~

more prayers pls...

just now uda called me ard 10 to tell me updates on zali...

the results for the examination is out n the blood vessels burst (should be in brain ba) n the doc need to remove those bllod clots..
tml morning he'll go for his operation... pls pls let the operation be successful...
uda said zali may be paralysed... i think he also abit confused about the info he received from the wife via sms... oh well... tml evening after work i may go down to check it out... tml morning i'll call the wife ba... =\

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Jenn @ 6/01/2007 12:24:00 AM | 0 Comments | Post a Comment

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