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~Wednesday, December 29, 2004 ~ definition of a real frdhmm well... this is how u know who's ur true frd.. when ur nick is <被遗弃的小狗: fell down... sniff!! ...> , ur frd saw it and msn u this: well... tt's all for today! lazy n tired to type... oh later musart concert!!!all the best to me n u guys!!!!!!!
~Sunday, December 26, 2004 ~ Wat i got for Christmas this year:potpurri Bodyshop's potpurri couple of choclates Elizabeth Arden's green tea shower gel SK's purple pendant precious moment's choclate from Ber!! that's about it...hmm.. ok lor.. sms wishes from: tejay Sherine Xinzhan Serena Huiting mum(?! she send for fun) Rachel Nick's lame sms... 金狗表~金狗表~金狗欧得喂~~叮叮当叮叮当，铃声多响亮！。。。圣诞黑皮，黑皮牛液！ Guobin Shuping Xiaotian Dawn(life sci) Weiqi Berlinda actually i didnt really expect gifts coZ i never give.... i wanna buy one.. but like i know tons n tons of ppl.... how to give everyone.. heehee also too busy w work n going for pracs... hai... lalalallala
~Friday, December 24, 2004 ~ hmm.... had a bad day today... hmm lazy to elaborate n i dun wanna put it in my memory... things hav been seemingly bad for me.. then things just wanna get worse... disappointed w my students... is it me or my teaching method isnt working? almost cry but im stoned out coz didnt have sufficient sleep.. so it ain tt bad for not enuff sleep... im super sensitive nowadays so things just gets bleak watever happens... didnt had proper dinner... now abit hungry but it's ok.. will turn in soon... student gave my potpurri... almost same as shuzhen gave me tt one... in super stoned out n sad mood... then afternn lesson postponed to next tues... hai i sianz le.. give in to the instructor la... he already buay song le.. still must give him some face.. need to survive in the music industry... then slowly went down to cc... slack for an hr at coffeeshop behind.. then things were getting better ...then went downhill in the evening.. and im just disappointed n also feel bad for shouting at meiling much earlier on... nothing seems to be right.. probably except for my sense of timing tonite which is about so-so only.. 坏人难做。。 but i think it was necessary but prob inappropriate for the occasion...i think i can go bang wall. never realise meiling n meihui r really siblings... oops.. heh oh! received a surprise gift from a frd... never tot i'll get 1 from him! was surprised at the gift... while i opened on my way home... happy happy to receive tt...hmm... quie simple n nice.... i shall sleep now.... waking at 8am... got music theory lesson later.. @_@
~Thursday, December 23, 2004 ~ will u like someone u think tt he's irritating n simply CMI, with weird thinkings u simply cannot fanthom... but u know he's always trying his best to do his job with weird or unworkable ideas? stubborn in his thinkings and failed attempts trying to make him understand from other pt of views just makes u give up?feel free to tell me how u think... thx! btw, this is just a question i 心血来潮 tot of it... not tt this is someone in particular i like.. *ponder*
~~ well well... i think im destined to be a loner.. amongst my beloved instruments.. marimba, drumset, shaker.. as to name a few.. felt soooo left out... didnt perform for alumni band.. well well. usually if i play w the band i wun feel so bad even though i dun tok much to the rest of them... now i attend the concert as though im not part of the alumni.. i felt sad sia.. hai.. sianz.. im quiet as usual.... felt awkward most of the time.. so out of place... then waited for the rest then go makan after concert.. overall i think they r quite ok.. but 7th nite of july i think they didnt play the best one... noah's ark was all right... sat w liang yu during 2nd half.. hmm i feel that the band technically is quit good but the musical sense is not balanced... at least this yr round the woodwinds n brasses sounded quite balanced... hmm perc ensemble was all right.... i dunno why nowadays i think im getting mor critical in a sense.. like actually mayb the std is pretty good liao but i'll still find pts to pick on,.. this happens to all my students/percussion.... realised this is an advantage but then bad in some ways too....supper was at the usual coffeeshop... nice dinner.. 13 of us there... huisi, janice, chuhui, steph, jiayan, shuli, huiying, 1 yg flute junior, shuping, shuzhen, alicia, liangyu..... left ard 11plus.. heng i sit beside jiayan n steph... jiayan's sick so i kia-up food for her... took 74 w liangyu... she IA at f&n.... now sianz... 1.22am n im supposed to be sleeping!! HAI....
~Sunday, December 19, 2004 ~ my current all-time fav song... written by coldplay's christ martin!!Gravity by Embrace honey, it's been a long time coming, and i can't stop now such a long time running, and i can't stop now do you hear my heart beating? can you hear that sound? 'cause i can't help thinking and i don't look down [chorus] and then i looked up at the sun and i could see oh the way that gravity turns for you and me and then i looked up at the sky and saw the sun and the way that gravity pulls on everyone on everyone baby, it's been a long time waiting, such a long, long time and i can't stop smiling, no i can't stop now and do you hear my heart beating? and can you hear that sound? 'cause i can't help crying and i won't look down and then i looked up at the sun and i could see oh, the way that gravity turns on you and me and then i looked up at the sun and saw the sky and the way that gravity pulls on you and i on you and i can you hear my heart beating? oh you hear that sound? 'cause i can't help crying and i wun look down
~Saturday, December 18, 2004 ~ 生日快乐，我的好朋友。。 希望你能很快的找到工。。 不为钱而烦恼。。 希望你会快乐，不要再整天觉得困扰，不开心。。 我希望你能永远开心，无论发生什莫事，我都会在你的背后支持你的！ =D
~Sunday, December 12, 2004 ~ back from drinkin... left the usual place when i sat n face the swimming pool ard 11pm... went home.. like tt lor... tok to tejay.. thx for chatting w me... really appreciate... now just feel like stonning.. HAI no one tok to me online anyway.. just stone...
~~ 今天，我崩溃了。。现在我也不想多说。。 只是上网type 这个而已。。我以为我在你的心目中多多少少也有一点分量。。 但是你让我感觉原来我连好朋友都不是。。 其实刚才我已经不行了。。 只是勉强的撑下去。。 继续 sectionals or 练练几下而已。。 可是你走了也不说一声，只是进来一下便走了。。 didnt know wat u wanna do.. 打了几通电话都没接。。 就知道你又听不到了。。 但是我还是打多几次。。 还是没接。。 整个心collapse 了。。呆在studio 外面stone n :'(.... 我有直至知名。。 不能要求什么。。 但是。。 在我最需要朋友的依靠时，你竟然不在我身边。。 原来我只能靠我自己。。 当你以为只有你失落的时候，你又何尝看得到我的不开心？你以为我只是在逗你开心是不是？你错了。。 :'( 看来唯有让自己沉默在自己的世界了 for now。。 to those reading this: 如果你认为我在pms-ing, 你错了。。 i'll go for a drink now.. will type more later on ba... =| :'(
~~ dear frds, at this point of time i wish to kill myself n drop dead!!!!! argh... after recording for more than 60mins of stuff, everthing seems to be gone!?! either i spoilt the disc or the md player! shetzel! i sincerely hope the md player is not spoilt or else i need to pay back!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!!! the only good thing is i've transfered the "best" snare drum track into laptop... but then again the mishap happened when i was transferring halfway!!!!! AAAAAAAhhhhhh!!! the 2 hrs in cc today is all totally down the drain!!!! my marimba solo!! just now recorded a couple of the best so far i've done!!!! sigh! wat a big joke!!!! ='(
~Saturday, December 11, 2004 ~ hmmm btw.. dunno who is the mysterious boyfrd i had which i never knew... mr hoe asked me about it n i still have no slightest idea who is he toking about.. hmmm*ponders*
~~ quote of the day: 柳暗花明又一春hmm.... well well... this quote is for my good frd... dun despair... when u hit the rock bottom... nothing can get any worse.. hope u see this... this quote was from uncle hoe earlier on.. went to have dinner w him after the west zone cluster exchange program... rain so heavily.. then stuck in hkss.. victor was there too... then the 3 of us went for dinner lor.. 10plus pm.. then eat , sit, drink, tok n chnit chat til close to 2an then reach home.. hai later still gotta go down twss.. =|
~Friday, December 10, 2004 ~ well just feeling sianz n neglected.. oh well... watever i shall remain silenteveryone so happily chatting away and i just hide 1 corner.. ain toking to no one unless private msg me
~Saturday, December 04, 2004 ~ hmm well well.. busy for the week as usual... tiring man.. everyday wake up so early.. hai.. no choice la... i think this helps in a way tt the kids r forced to practise lor.. after the exchange on tues i can sense the change in them to improve n practise their parts more... hopefully this will continue,.... anyway im just feeling bored now... feel like toking to someone but dunno who to tok to....current nick: will i step fwd or back? i also dunno...踏出去就不回头了 oh well... those who r reading it if u know u know if u dunno try askin me... =| it has come to this point once again tt i need to ponder about this... i've been trying very hard to move forward but obviously it didnt exactly turn out this way... but now defnitely the push im forcing myself to go is towards the goal but i know/think tt once i've stepped out most likely i wun turn back again... i feel the same agony once again but not as strong as before.. prob i just start to feel tired about this whole thing n drains me mentally n psychologically... and decide the best is to move fwd.. i just need 1 more push to step out... 你到底知不知道？ or u dun even know wat u wan? ='(
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