My Inner World

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My Inner World

~Friday, July 28, 2006 ~

reflection

alot of things are happening... i duno how to react... i feel that i've changed.. i KNOW i have changed... after working in the already not-so-harsh world out there... under protective wings of my boss... what i've gone through have changed my preception of things and how things need to be done. and probably i have sounded pretty harsh towards ppl on things and have higher expectations of things. but i am just me. i guess some ppl r turned off by the things/comments i said some way or another. i duno. i know that i dont feel like i belong there anymore. i wasnt able to contribute as much as i wanted during that period of time i was working for events. there is nothing i can do about that! i also hope tt the experiences i've gained from my work can also help in the management. im just farking out of the league.

Partly of stopping work in the timely july was for the convenience n total concentration for the upcoming things happening. though i would really want to contribute like before, im just being left out. i dun belong to this. i dun belong to the management. i dun belong here anymore. it's not even about belonging to a clique at all. i hate this feeling. which i felt so strongly in senior yrs... total outcast n not being able to contribute. it's like effort wasted. it's happening again. and i know this time round, i have to let go. i need to let go. in order to move on in life. i feel really sad that we dun share problems and joy anymore... all the laughter n fun we used to have together.
i guess this is good. it would be easier to let go when the time comes for me to leave. :'(

i love u guys.

Jenn @ 7/28/2006 11:09:00 PM | 0 Comments | Post a Comment

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